15 Male Singapore

today was the aesthetique showcase of two aesthetique. which is us, and the chinese orchestra. i've practised through the running notes of Incantation and Dance just an hour before the showcase while the chamber music groups were out to perform to non-existent audiences.

the chinese orchestra put up a spectacular performance for us. they played a 20th century piece, which consists of mostly sound effects and their syf set-piece - a typical chinese sounding one. many of us thought they were way superior above us, and soon grew to be afraid of the performance, which is due in 3 minutes time.

basically we went through the two pieces. Sunrise and Incantation and Dance. they didn't go well. loopholes and screw-ups could be heard in every single part of the music.

mr heng had came in at that moment after we've finished playing. he claimed that we were all "afraid". Indeed, yes, many band members were afraid to play, even i myself became very very cautious. but being cautious isn't the right thing to do at that moment. we're supposed to let go of everything and present the music to the audience. not the notes.

i recall, my sec 1 year as a band member.

i joined the chssb because of my passion towards music and the flute, and partially because i had the experience as a flute and piccolo player in my primary school band.

that year was the syf year to the sec 2-4s. i hoped to join in the syf, but unfortunately all the spaces were taken up. the list was finalisted and thus i wasn't included.

even that was so, i still joined the main band in many of the band practices that they had. as a sec 1. in the practices, i could see the determination and the perseverence of all my seniors then.

they had this energy and fire that's fuming inside them. they wanted the gold w/honours. and they've worked so hard towards it, together, as a family of musicians. and they've made it, successfully. the award was theirs.

thus i appeal (and plead) to all band members:

practice hard, get everything right
with passion
with determination
with perseverence
with confidence
with the thought that you're doing this for your family - chssb

pull through this 3 months, i believe, we'll make it successfully to our goals.

left himself a note;
10:07 PM